What Do I Want?

What do I want?… I want to know

As deep within, emotions flow.

I want to understand this time.

Help? Clarity? Peace of mind?

Do I want, to run the show?

Do I want, to just let go?

Do I want, to dance or sing?

I know, I could do anything.

Do I want, revenge or power?

Do I want, to hide and cower?

Do I want, to stand here strong?

Or back away from what I long?

Love, Acceptance, be a part…

Is what I hear deep in my heart.

To just belong, to find my place,

To find the courage to run this race.

To live with purpose, be set free

From prisons, that are holding me.

To smash the walls, to break the ties,

That strangle me, with all the lies.

I built this dark cell of despair,

Then claimed it as my own.

It is my choice, which path I take,

The repercussions…, mine alone.

CMJordan, 06/ 2016

All it would take is a WAR or FIRE


What an odd and impossible statement

ALL it would take is a “WAR”

to prove

Within 24 hrs hours you would know, that “all you own…  &  all you are…

is “Mind & Spirit”

The biggest DANGER lies in a belief that you can or do possess, anything other than yourself.

There is nothing outside “you” that you can control. You can manipulate certain things for a short period but you cannot own them, nor control them. That is mere illusion….

You can present to the world your wisdom, your experiences and your actions.

You can teach and enlighten all you meet in your walk through life.

You DO own your “words”. Your words have the power to build up or destroy everything around you, even your own Spirit

All the answers you will ever need in life are already inside you … and has been since the day you arrived. You are …. whoever you have “chosen” to be through your added experiences,  beliefs, choices and actions.  No-one and nothing else determines YOU

You create what you want, what you have and who you are presented as…whether subconsciously or consciously. But you contain, hold or own NOTHING outside of your mind. Even your body changes without your say so…

You are not your possessions

(although you may have put all your energies and focus into gathering them) you do not possess or control them. They can be stolen, broken, burned or disappear in an instant .

What makes you think you have any control of them?

Who are YOU without them???  You WILL be without them somewhere down the road so does that mean YOU cease to become YOU once you have seen proof you never owned them in the first place?

You are not your career or titles, bank account or social status

… and it is detrimental to your life that you do NOT consider them as such.

If the economy crashes and your status no longer exists…?

If you experience an accident or disease… ?

If your bank is forced to close with all your money in it…?

If your children, spouse… die and your status within your family is now past tense…?

Do you cease to have value or worth?

Your accumulations and status serve “no-one” but YOUAnd they are NOT lasting… 

You are the only YOU ever to ever touch this earth

You  are unique and very needed.

You have…,and have always had… a purpose beyond self.

Without YOU and your insights, wisdom and true power there is a HOLE,  that will never be filled, and the world will miss out on what could have been.

You have the power to inspire, encourage, teach and serve this place called earth with your talents, wisdom, abilities and insights.

You have the power to create all that is needed to live a REAL life full of joy, freedom, and inspiration for yourself and to serve by teaching others what YOU have discovered.

Leaving a Legacy for all to enjoy and learn from throughout time.

But if you are only here to accumulate stuff and status for “SELF”…

You have missed the whole point of your existence and when you no longer have access to your ideals…,  you “WILL” fall HARD.

“It Is, What It Is”




 If you believe… You are in need

It is a lie

A “want” is NOT… a need

Don’t even try

If you search… the whole world over

You will never find your peace

Deep within are all your answers

Deep within is your release

If you think… that what you see

Is what you get

Toil and anguish… will be yours

sealed with regret

If you search… the whole world over

You will never find your peace

Deep within are all your answers

Deep within is your release

If you feel… you OWN an atom

you are blind

Can’t you see… that ALL things vanish

over time

If you search… the whole world over

You will never find your peace

Deep within are all your answers

Deep within is your release

If you know… you have it all

then you are wise

Your connection to the truth

within… will rise

No search outside is needed

In Rest and Peace… you’ll live

You will never be defeated

Light and Love… is what you’ll give

CMJordan Oct 3, 2015



UNWIND THE LORD says… from this ego you hold

YOU… are not “it”…. let my TRUTH unfold.

You are one Cell… With a PURPOSE so vast

Awaken MY Child… RELEASE all things Past.

Your FORM is not lasting

Your needs are displaced

The things you hold dear

Will soon vanish… no trace

Ego is fickle… empty with lies

It serves you no purpose …to follow… unwise

It blinds you to REAL… keeps your focus on you

Peace won’t be found there…Neither will TRUTH

I AM within… you ‘re a CELL of MY whole


There’s NO separation… between Me and You

Except that your ego… won’t let ME through

Your mind created… its self righteous stand

Closed tightly the door… to what I have planned

Only you have the Key… to open and see

The ONENESS of truth…

I AM in you …You are in ME

CMJordan Oct 1, 2015



No, Love is not the answer here

Though Love’s required plain and clear

Be grateful too

For life “as is”

No focus on

What’s hers or his

The more you give, the more you get

but wait, you’ve not seen nothin yet

The Joy, the Peace

The blessings here

Will overflow your cup

My Dear

Grace and Mercy rest on you

When you purpose, what you do

No thing to gain

No Glory here

But strength to stand

With not a fear

The action?,  “SERVE” with all your heart

Right where you are, is where you start

No one else

Could ever do

What is needed

 “HE” chose you

His timing is perfect, The way is made clear

He speaks from within… and “He” will steer

Your wages are Rest

Still waters run deep

As the day closes

In Green pastures you’ll sleep.

CMJordan, Sept 21, 2015



The purpose is the same for all

Unique to each, as leaves that fall

No 2 the same

Yet 1 the word

To follow through

Seldom heard

But live your purpose and you’ll find

Peace of Spirit and of Mind

No thought of self

No social norm

The action silent

Calms a storm

Some will linger, for some more

Some in fear, will close the door

The day feels brighter

Calm and still

No one but you

This task will fill

You need to trust, within yourself

You know you can’t, sit on the shelf

Without you…

It remains undone

Sad but True

No-one Won

So search real deep for strength and see

Experience makes you “you” and me “me”

Take the action

And just add you

A better world

We’ll all pass through

3/3 coming soon

CMJordan, Sept 21, 2015


   1st of 3


A Purpose Driven Life they say
What is my purpose anyway?
Should I write?
Should I sing?
What are my talents?
What do I bring?

I love my job, my family too
My house, my car, I’m blessed, it’s true
Why the void ?
What will fill?
This empty space
inside me still?

The quest all mankind seeks to solve
until answered, will revolve
around the mind
through the soul
The answer needed
to feel whole

The battle deep within goes on
The many things we tried, long gone
Will I die?
Before I find?
What’s wrong with me ?
That I’m so blind?

So here it is, a little clue
So simple, yet profoundly true
Don’t look for things
through clouded eyes
It is an action
found inside.

2/3 coming soon
CMJordan Sept 15, 2015