If you believe… You are in need

It is a lie

A “want” is NOT… a need

Don’t even try

If you search… the whole world over

You will never find your peace

Deep within are all your answers

Deep within is your release

If you think… that what you see

Is what you get

Toil and anguish… will be yours

sealed with regret

If you search… the whole world over

You will never find your peace

Deep within are all your answers

Deep within is your release

If you feel… you OWN an atom

you are blind

Can’t you see… that ALL things vanish

over time

If you search… the whole world over

You will never find your peace

Deep within are all your answers

Deep within is your release

If you know… you have it all

then you are wise

Your connection to the truth

within… will rise

No search outside is needed

In Rest and Peace… you’ll live

You will never be defeated

Light and Love… is what you’ll give

CMJordan Oct 3, 2015

Who AM I ?

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I have yet to get past Chapter 1 in my reading of this most profound book. This will be my Second Post and the beginning of my Quest but the depth of my comprehension is 99% un-describable with words or metaphors. (0 .2% ) of that 1% lies with in this post and( 0.8%) of that 1% I leave in my journal. As it would not be understood in its present state…. other than possibly within conversation…

As and If I am able to give it description… it will be put to written comprehendible concepts and I will present it here too . But for now…

My prayer is that those who are seeking find a spark in these posts that helps them go deeper… think outside the boundaries…, on their own journey of Enlightenment.

As a person who has always sought the LORD (Father, Son, Holy Spirit) for as long as I can remember, there have been many many things that have puzzled me throughout my walk with Him.

Things I knew to be True but was completely unsure of WHY/ or HOW ?

I have always known in my Spirit that if it is here, on earth….  it is here because the Creator put it here for us to enjoy, use, experience etc.

I’m talking about a wide variety of topics never approached and always shunned or disregarded within the borders of Christianity and its man developed doctrines.

Yet even with out their approval My Spirit remained calm in a “knowing” that it was all a part of a much bigger picture than, I was able to see or, understand at the time.

I have no desire to debate or argue or convince anyone of anything I believe. Just a driving curiosity as to how it all fit together.

Never (to my knowledge) would I adopt a concept that goes against “The WORD or the WILL of GOD”. It has always been my upfront boundary that is immovable.

But very few if any saw, thought or felt as I did about the concept of “Truths” outside the box of taught doctrines.

I was told, I was dangerously melding my Christianity with New Age concepts or Mystic concepts or of People whose words and wisdoms did not believe in “JESUS as Saviour” therefore the wisdoms and knowledge of,… were not of GOD and I would be lost.

My Spirit felt only sadness at the untruths and ignorance of the mentors trying to convince me. For they too were led astray by their education, designed by the human mind. And the heart breaking destruction of souls being detoured from “The Door” with the untruths and ignorance of twisted concepts and partial truths presented as “GODS meaning” in His WORD.

Not that it will change their Salvation, but  the life they live and experience while down here is so much less than it could be.

Few question the teacher… Why is that?… Even fewer seek and research for themselves.

Is it fear of being lead astray?

Is it laziness?

To time consuming?…

I’m not sure and it’s really not mine to discern.

TRUTH will only be found in seeking HIM with HIS illumination of HIS WORD . Not in the vain human dissection of HIS WORD and the human mind trying to comprehend HIS meanings.

I feel for those who look but do not see and listen but do not hear, but I also understand.

I was somewhat the same till my mid twenties. The preaching that was popular instructed that anything not in the Bible was not of God. Also taught with a vengeance was, every verse that points out, how easy it is to be mislead by the world and thereby putting your assurance of eternity at risk.

My Quest for deeper connection and truth continues today almost 40 years later.

I do not believe we have enough time now here to EVER absorb it all but there is far more than any can comprehend and there is complete FREEDOM to be found within the Seeking.

The last few months have been the first months in my lifetime that I have experienced solitude. I raised 7 children as a single parent and then took care of my aging parents for 5 years after, which all changed in May, 2015. I am about to turn sixty and for the first time in my life, my time is mine. My quest started almost immediately my parents moving into a Lodge.  And has been an all consuming fire than burns within 24/7 since day 1.

Don’t get me wrong, I go to work ,as well as, babysit within my 17 grandchildren, attend family events and get togethers but I am experiencing solo time without interuption. A brand new experience I am very grateful for.

I know in the very near future I will have the freedom to contemplate and write at anytime day or night, as I am enlightened, but for now I am grateful for the newly found moments I have. I am not  the person I was 3 months ago, nor will I ever be again.

CMJordan, Aug/2015

My Journey thru “The Impersonal Life” #3


REALITY ? We have been seriously mislead

Every reality we have been taught exists,  is completely FALSE
“We” ,as determined by our physical presence, have decided , by our own egotistical  human vanity, What is “Fact”, What is “True”, and What is “Real”.
If you can NOT see it, touch it, smell it, hear it then… “IT” is not real.
Therefore we debate the reality or existence of God, Divine Intelligence, Creator, Soul… call HIM what you will…
I ask you to contemplate, of your own free will, where REAL truth and/ or REALITY exist.
Can you see sight? Can you see touch? Can you see smell? Can you see sound?
 Therefore by your own standards are they real?????
Your existence as a tangible form (human body) depends 100% completely on the unseen to even exist… Does it not?
You cannot see the AIR
You cannot see what causes your heart to pump, your lungs to breathe, your brain to think, your mind to evaluate…
You cannot see gravity, which holds all the things together (including you)
You cannot see energy, but it  keeps you warm, gives you light, runs your computer, makes your muscles work, allows you to hear, to breathe…
You cannot see thought
You cannot see the mind
You cannot see sound (yes you can hear it, but you cannot touch it or see it)
AND you cannot see your soul, that piece of the Eternal Divine Intelligence within your body. Which in its entirety “IS” the REAL you. It always existed and always will.
The physically “seen” YOU changes by the mili-second. It was created and therefore will become ,over time, molecules of other matter.
Is the “you” that was born the same “you” as now?
Of course not!
Here is an analogy borrowed from Wayne Dyer that states it as good as any: Not 1 cell of that babies body still exists as that body….  nor does your toddler body, your teen body not even your body from 10 years ago still exists as you…
So were they real?
Were they real once, but now they are not?
How is that possible?
Is the internet real? (just a thought, lol)
If you stand on the intellect of human conclusion of “real” then the answer must be “NO” to all of the above…
Unless of course you have double and contradicting standards… Where is the line? How do we determine where that line is? and Why ?
The answer of course is : we don’t really understand any of it and therefore have made our own imaginary line. Which by the way “can NOT be seen” and will forever be moved as we see fit.
Anything your eyes can see, is not lasting .… It is here now… at this time in history, but will not exist ,as it does now, in 2 minutes… 2 days, 2 weeks, 2 years …
As each second passes the cells and atoms within are changing. Particles falling back to the dust from where they came…they are NOT gone… they will be re-distributed into other matter, via wind, water, gravity… , they just ceased to be particles of you.
What is real must be lasting… BUT there is nothing on this earth that is lasting… Every particle of energy that exists here is in a constant state of change.
Everything on this earth was nothing more than thought until  created.
By either the Divine Intelligence (The Creator of the earth and all Nature on it) OR “Us”,  with inspiration from… the Divine Intelligence that resides within.
We were created “in HIS Image”and given access, within our body, to all HE is.
Genesis 1:26…Then God said, “Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness; and let them rule over the fish of the sea and over the birds of the sky and over the cattle and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth.”’
Genesis 1:28 God blessed them; and God said to them, “Be fruitful and multiply, and fill the earth, and subdue it; and rule over the fish of the sea and over the birds of the sky and over every living thing that moves on the earth.”…
Ephesians 4:24 …and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.
Ecclesiastes 7:29…This only have I found: God created mankind upright, but they have gone in search of many schemes.”
2Peter: 4-13 4 For by these He has granted to us His precious and magnificent promises, so that by them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world by lust.
5 Now for this very reason also, applying all diligence, in your faith supply moral excellence, and in your moral excellence, knowledge,
6 and in your knowledge, self-control, and in your self-control, perseverance, and in your perseverance, godliness,
7 and in your godliness, brotherly kindness, and in your brotherly kindness, love.
8 For if these qualities are yours and are increasing, they render you neither useless nor unfruitful in the true knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.
9 For he who lacks these qualities is blind or short-sighted, having forgotten his purification from his former sins.
10Therefore, brethren, be all the more diligent to make certain about His calling and choosing you; for as long as you practice these things, you will never stumble;
11 for in this way the entrance into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ will be abundantly supplied to you.
12 Therefore, I will always be ready to remind you of these things, even though you already know them, and have been established in the truth which is present with you.
13 I consider it right, as long as I am in this earthly dwelling, to stir you up by way of reminder,…
I leave you today, with a fact you “DO know as TRUE”
Are you ready yet… to even slightly contemplate it?
It has manifested from time to time ,to you, throughout your life but you usually bury it quickly. For fear of ……
If you search inside yourself, you already know the insight above to be True… Not the you of the Body… but the “YOU” in your soul.

CMJordan,25/07/ 2015

My Journey thru “The Impersonal Life” #2




My mind + my intellect = my personality.

But my personality is nothing more than an expression of the Host (the body)  I inhabit on this earth.

The REAL me,  (Spirit, conscious energy) is a cell, a molecule, an atom of the infinite Creators infinite Body. I am an Expression of HIM, of His personality.

I exist (the real me) only within Him and HE exists in everything.

Ephesians 4:6 NSAB…one God and Father of all who is over all and through all and IN ALL.
  • If part of  Rundle Mountain collapses and falls to the base, at what point does any boulder, rock or dust of the mountain, cease to be 100% Rundle Mountain?

  • If you take a piece home is it now no longer the mountain since it has been moved to a different location?

  • Is Rundle Mountain itself ( the part that still stands strong) now less than 100% Rundle Mountain?

  • After giving birth to a child who took some of my Genes am I now less me?

I have been given this Material Host (body) and placed in this system with a purpose, a function.

The Host (body) is temporary and has NO eternal or infinite value.

The Host will return to the dust on this earth from where it came, once it has served its purpose.

(Genesis 3:19, NASB  For you are dust,And to dust you shall return.”)

Everything from this earth must stay on this earth, for it is“finite” and was created but for a moment.


Does that make me GOD?  NO, NO, NO !!!! 1 thousand to the millionth power NO…!


Ephesians 4:6 NSAB…one God and Father of all who is over all and through all and IN all.

What part of “ALL” does that leave out?

Therefore HE is IN, OF and THROUGH ME.


I AM NOT the Completeness of …

Nor can I be…

nor Will I ever be….

But the “real me”, the untouchable, intangible, Spirit and Soul Me is still 100% HIM

I AM no less My LORD than the pebble that fell from the mountain, could cease to be 100% that mountain.

CMJordan, 22/07/2015

My Journey thru “The Impersonal Life” #1



TODAY is the first day of the rest of your life!

You have no past to live up to…

I ABSORBED some words Yesterday.

I did not listen to them, I HEARD

I did not look at them, I SAW

I did not think on them, I WAS CONSUMED by them

I became, as the substance in a washing machine.

As each bubble bursts, having completed its task, I absorb the fresh air and new light from where the grime has been washed away


And Know 


It was coffee break…

Only a half an hour long but the beginning of a journey  “I knew”,.. had put to death the “Me”, I thought I was.
My soul stirred…at first a very large whirlpool slowly swirling above me, then forming a funnel, it penetrated ,every cell of my body, to the depth of my innermost being.
As it reached the soles of my feet, it spontaneously shot outwards, consuming the ground under me as a gigantic firework flattened. Shooting out in an ever enlarging illuminated circle of projected light beams full of energy and power…
All thought dissipating… My heartbeat slowing to a new serenity… My awareness tuning to the whispering music of the trees…. soothing my existence…
With new found freedom, the fallen leaves were skipping and playing on the sidewalk beside me.
The gentle caress of  tepid wind cleansing and empowering as it flowed over my face, my neck my hair, my hands… and ever so gently billowed my clothing.

I AM ready LORD…. It’s time

Herein lies my quest as I submerge.

CMJordan, 20/07/2015