No, Love is not the answer here

Though Love’s required plain and clear

Be grateful too

For life “as is”

No focus on

What’s hers or his

The more you give, the more you get

but wait, you’ve not seen nothin yet

The Joy, the Peace

The blessings here

Will overflow your cup

My Dear

Grace and Mercy rest on you

When you purpose, what you do

No thing to gain

No Glory here

But strength to stand

With not a fear

The action?,  “SERVE” with all your heart

Right where you are, is where you start

No one else

Could ever do

What is needed

 “HE” chose you

His timing is perfect, The way is made clear

He speaks from within… and “He” will steer

Your wages are Rest

Still waters run deep

As the day closes

In Green pastures you’ll sleep.

CMJordan, Sept 21, 2015



The purpose is the same for all

Unique to each, as leaves that fall

No 2 the same

Yet 1 the word

To follow through

Seldom heard

But live your purpose and you’ll find

Peace of Spirit and of Mind

No thought of self

No social norm

The action silent

Calms a storm

Some will linger, for some more

Some in fear, will close the door

The day feels brighter

Calm and still

No one but you

This task will fill

You need to trust, within yourself

You know you can’t, sit on the shelf

Without you…

It remains undone

Sad but True

No-one Won

So search real deep for strength and see

Experience makes you “you” and me “me”

Take the action

And just add you

A better world

We’ll all pass through

3/3 coming soon

CMJordan, Sept 21, 2015


   1st of 3


A Purpose Driven Life they say
What is my purpose anyway?
Should I write?
Should I sing?
What are my talents?
What do I bring?

I love my job, my family too
My house, my car, I’m blessed, it’s true
Why the void ?
What will fill?
This empty space
inside me still?

The quest all mankind seeks to solve
until answered, will revolve
around the mind
through the soul
The answer needed
to feel whole

The battle deep within goes on
The many things we tried, long gone
Will I die?
Before I find?
What’s wrong with me ?
That I’m so blind?

So here it is, a little clue
So simple, yet profoundly true
Don’t look for things
through clouded eyes
It is an action
found inside.

2/3 coming soon
CMJordan Sept 15, 2015


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“NOW” is yours to hold and live

Spend “NOW” wisely and forgive

“NOW” is all, that you can claim

Live it fully, Break ALL chains

NOW won’t linger,

 NOW wont last

“NOW” never ends,

“NOW” holds no past

“NOW” has never been, till NOW

and “NOW” won’t be again

You’ve been given all you need for “NOW”

Do you see,  what it contains?

“NOW” is a gift, thats in your hands

How will you use it? What will you plan?

Your “NOW” decides your tomorrow, today

Search deep within, then step out in Faith.

CMJordan, Sept 13, 2015

The ME inside of Me

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The ME inside of Me

60’s just a number

I want you all to know

The ME inside this human form

Just started Life, and so….

This Form is Filled with Wisdom

I‘ve searched and prayed and learned

I barely even started yet

and I am not concerned…

For the form you see in front of you

will never catch up to ME

But as a dwelling, it’s quite alright

Twas Created Strong and Free

I’m gonna sail the open seas

No concept of dry land

I’ll fill this world with Love and Hope

With open arms and hands…

I’ll share the Truth with all I meet

I’ll Pray and Touch and Heal

The Mind, the Body and the SOUL

and awaken, all, to REAL

CMJordan, Sept 1, 2015

My Journey thru the “Impersonal Life” #4


Judgements cause Destruction

We all have our judgements (we have no right to judge ) but we do anyway.
We spend our lives trying to rise above and be better than those who caused us pain but really we pass it on. Maybe in a different way but destruction of the Soul is destruction of the Soul.
We destroy and tear down the real person within these bodies with borders, disciplines, words, anger, judgements and actions.
We were all born to live lives connected directly to the Creator but almost from birth, have to build walls and fall in line with societal norms, parental ideas obtained from past generations and an ever-changing social norm and try to figure out how to fit into this world.
What part of us is acceptable? What part of us is encouraged?,
Unfortunately for most of us “not much of the real us was allowed”. So we give up our true selves and concentrated on trying to be what everyone else thinks we should be from our parents to our…
The rare ones who have been allowed to be whatever their Spirit brought out are the Greatest Creators, Thinkers and Philosophers of History. No-one told them they couldn’t, shouldn’t or ….
The rest of us , tired of the fight, gave up and gave in. We have always known of our real selves deep within… We “daydream” about our perfect lives, We ponder the what ifs, We know we were meant to be and do more but fear of rejection and the unknown keep us safely in our cocoon never searching… just dreaming.
The # 1 thing regretted most by dying people in a multitude of surveys and books was they wished they had done what they wanted and knew they were meant to do.
Let me ask you… If you knew you had 5 years to live from this day, period, end of your story… What would you do with the next 5 years?
What do you want written on your gravestone?
What do you want people to be remembering about you from that point on?
I wrote a poem many years ago then updated it a few years back. I leave you with it to ponder…

If tomorrow wasn’t yours

And you knew of it today

What things would you do differently

What things would you not say

Who would you ask forgivness from

And who would you repay

If tomorrow wasn’t yours

And you knew of it today

If tomorrow wasn’t theirs

And you’d known of it today

Would you have talked a little softer

Would your priorities have changed

Would you have loved a little harder

Let the small things pass right by

Yes, it can happen, just that quick

Death is not a Lie



Still have not reached chapter 2. The next post to follow this will be my journal of my journey so far. It is lengthy as I unleashed some insights ,as well as, Feelings in my own life thus far that I had no idea resided in me. I debated posting BUT feel it is necessary for other souls that can relate to know they are not alone.

Who AM I ?

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I have yet to get past Chapter 1 in my reading of this most profound book. This will be my Second Post and the beginning of my Quest but the depth of my comprehension is 99% un-describable with words or metaphors. (0 .2% ) of that 1% lies with in this post and( 0.8%) of that 1% I leave in my journal. As it would not be understood in its present state…. other than possibly within conversation…

As and If I am able to give it description… it will be put to written comprehendible concepts and I will present it here too . But for now…

My prayer is that those who are seeking find a spark in these posts that helps them go deeper… think outside the boundaries…, on their own journey of Enlightenment.

As a person who has always sought the LORD (Father, Son, Holy Spirit) for as long as I can remember, there have been many many things that have puzzled me throughout my walk with Him.

Things I knew to be True but was completely unsure of WHY/ or HOW ?

I have always known in my Spirit that if it is here, on earth….  it is here because the Creator put it here for us to enjoy, use, experience etc.

I’m talking about a wide variety of topics never approached and always shunned or disregarded within the borders of Christianity and its man developed doctrines.

Yet even with out their approval My Spirit remained calm in a “knowing” that it was all a part of a much bigger picture than, I was able to see or, understand at the time.

I have no desire to debate or argue or convince anyone of anything I believe. Just a driving curiosity as to how it all fit together.

Never (to my knowledge) would I adopt a concept that goes against “The WORD or the WILL of GOD”. It has always been my upfront boundary that is immovable.

But very few if any saw, thought or felt as I did about the concept of “Truths” outside the box of taught doctrines.

I was told, I was dangerously melding my Christianity with New Age concepts or Mystic concepts or of People whose words and wisdoms did not believe in “JESUS as Saviour” therefore the wisdoms and knowledge of,… were not of GOD and I would be lost.

My Spirit felt only sadness at the untruths and ignorance of the mentors trying to convince me. For they too were led astray by their education, designed by the human mind. And the heart breaking destruction of souls being detoured from “The Door” with the untruths and ignorance of twisted concepts and partial truths presented as “GODS meaning” in His WORD.

Not that it will change their Salvation, but  the life they live and experience while down here is so much less than it could be.

Few question the teacher… Why is that?… Even fewer seek and research for themselves.

Is it fear of being lead astray?

Is it laziness?

To time consuming?…

I’m not sure and it’s really not mine to discern.

TRUTH will only be found in seeking HIM with HIS illumination of HIS WORD . Not in the vain human dissection of HIS WORD and the human mind trying to comprehend HIS meanings.

I feel for those who look but do not see and listen but do not hear, but I also understand.

I was somewhat the same till my mid twenties. The preaching that was popular instructed that anything not in the Bible was not of God. Also taught with a vengeance was, every verse that points out, how easy it is to be mislead by the world and thereby putting your assurance of eternity at risk.

My Quest for deeper connection and truth continues today almost 40 years later.

I do not believe we have enough time now here to EVER absorb it all but there is far more than any can comprehend and there is complete FREEDOM to be found within the Seeking.

The last few months have been the first months in my lifetime that I have experienced solitude. I raised 7 children as a single parent and then took care of my aging parents for 5 years after, which all changed in May, 2015. I am about to turn sixty and for the first time in my life, my time is mine. My quest started almost immediately my parents moving into a Lodge.  And has been an all consuming fire than burns within 24/7 since day 1.

Don’t get me wrong, I go to work ,as well as, babysit within my 17 grandchildren, attend family events and get togethers but I am experiencing solo time without interuption. A brand new experience I am very grateful for.

I know in the very near future I will have the freedom to contemplate and write at anytime day or night, as I am enlightened, but for now I am grateful for the newly found moments I have. I am not  the person I was 3 months ago, nor will I ever be again.

CMJordan, Aug/2015